Choosing Forgiveness

12th Day of Lenten Devotional Series

Guest Post by: Stephen Coomer, Broadway United Methodist Church

Acts 7:59-60 While they were stoning him, Stephen prayed, "Lord Jesus, receive my spirit." Then he fell on his knees and cried out, "Lord, do not hold this sin against them." WHEN he said this, he fell asleep. Oh how I would love to give up trying to forgive someone! Forgiveness can be difficult. How can I forgive someone who has hurt me so bad? It's not always about others but also about how I grow spiritually myself. How do I gain emotional healing through forgiveness? I should forgive even though I've been treated wrong and feel it is not deserved. I'm tired of making excuses and will accept the fact that the pain happened. No longer shall I let it control my emotions or wonder why. 

I believe choosing forgiveness shall not only let up on my anxiety and anger, but maybe allow satisfaction in future decisions. The pain of not forgiving has held me back and destroyed my self-worth, while insecurities have eaten me up inside. I want emotional freedom so that I can be myself again. Feelings of unforgiveness have controlled me way too long. I choose forgiveness now and give it all up to the Lord. LORD, thank you for all you have done and that you've always been by my side. I may not have always asked for your mercy and help with forgiveness. I fully give you all control of this forgiveness I need so badly. I thank you for this past year and the healing I have received from your grace. Please comfort me and forgive me as well for holding this in so long. I want to give up this dark, deep, controlling emotion and learn more about compassion. Amen.

"Never let yesterday take up today."